Realization at 7:45AM

 I honestly can't wait till our kid gets here. I've been looking forward to it. Which is the cliche that all fathers probably say when they have their first kid, but I am excited not just for the kid but the changes and challenges that are before me now. For so long I have been looking for a new drive in my life now that my career path has kind of plateau-ed. So much has changed in the last year that I'm finding myself feeling very positive about things and yet I've become more aware of just how messed up the world is. Funny thing is, I'm welcoming the fear and nervousness. I feel myself rising to the challenge and ready to face it with open arms. I think of all the years of getting my heart stomped on and being knocked around emotionally has been preparing me for this time in my life.
 I realize now what an idiot I was in my youth thinking I had any idea of what life was about and that my knowledge of the world was enough. I really was clueless to it all.

 Wow, where did that come from? Heh. I haven't even had coffee yet. :)